Monday, January 12, 2009

Revolution Is Now

Hey beautiful people! Missed you!

Where to begin.....

These are my new years resoultions:

  • move out of my moms house
  • blog more often
  • learn to love my body for what it is and lose the attachment I have for the scale in my bathroom
  • work on my temper (sometimes the vixen can be a real bitch!)
  • learn to be more patient
  • stop drinking so much diet coke
  • work on my self-esteem
  • learn to trust men
  • stop procrastinating
  • work out more often
  • eat more fruits and vegtables
  • learn to love myself more

What else do I have to say? Oh damn I almost forgot! I'm going to therapy. I've addressed the issues with my eating disorders, but I really need to learn how to deal with all the things that happened to me when I was younger (being raped when I was 13, and being molested by my stepfather), and I've been snapping on my mom for no reason. She really doesnt deserve that, and I need to control my temper. So wish me luck! My first session is going to be sometime next month. (and I'm getting a pap smear Thursday morning.)

So I hung out with Panda Friday night. It was so fun! We had drinks with some of our old friends from high school, and um.....I got drunk! I never drink, bur for some weird reason, I felt like I had to keep on drinking. I totally puked all over my friend's house, and two of the girls had to help me walk to the car because I could'nt stand up straight. The girls and I also watched porn. (We were curious....none of us know how to ride a dick properly....ladies, if you have any tips PLEASE let me know!) Good times, good times.

Peace and Blessings,


21 holla'd back:

Shubby Doo said...

am i first...yay!

Shubby Doo said...

you got drunk
you puked
you watched learn how to!!!


Good luck in advance for next'll soon trust yourself enough to know that everything will be ok in the end...never forget that you are a jewel...

happy new year

Lina said...

Girl, those are a lot of resolutions, I aint hating on it though.

And I feel where you are coming from with the therapy. If I wasn't so gotdamned cheap, I would have been did it.

Now on to this dick riding...if your mission is to make them come, then that up and down motion that the porn stars do will work. But I know from experience that you can come quickly from riding a dick than any other position, so if your mission is to make yourself come. Start with a slow up and down, keep it slow but alternate between up and down and going in a circular motion. The best example I can give you is to grind like the Jamaicans do when they are dancing. Those videos might be more helpful. The jumping frog position is fun too, but if squats aren't your thing I wouldn't suggest it. Lastly, there is the booty bounce. Its easier if you lean forward, stiffen your arms shoulders and core and bounce your hips and ass. Try it all, and just try to tough it out, cause once you get it...girl you got it and whew, is it GOOD!!!

CurvyGurl ♥ said...

Hey mami! So glad to see ya back in full effect. Much love!

PhlyyGirl said...

ROFL!!!! Me and my homegirls used to watch porn in college for thee exact same reason!
The only tip I can offer, is to have him sit up or lean his back against something so that you can kneel and hold on to his shoulders. this makes the up and down motion MUCH easier...

...or so I've heard.

PhlyyGirl said...

Oh shit! I should have read the other comments first. Do WHATEVER Lina says. LOL!!

Ma'at said...

don't feel bad about the riding thing lol, i just learned and if i told you how i'd have to kill you. seriously though dear congrats on taking the step toward recovery and stay out of the liquor lol.

A.M. said...

yay you're back.
ahhh...glad to hear you're out having fun with girlfriends...watching porn hehe.

Teems said...

Dont know! lmao "you can do it put your back into it"

I have been considering therapy lately because as open as I am I havent really overcome my true issues.

Amber said...

i appreciate u sooo much for your honesty
im in your corner rooting for u
good luck

Kitty said...

Hey Vixen,
Good luck with the therapy!

And the d*ck riding. LOL

Chae NewBreed said...

congrats on the RESOLUTIONS.
i don't have ANY.
however, i have made the decision to practice CELIBACY (whoa) until i'm in a committed relationship.
we'll see how long that lasts.
but i dont think i know how to properly ride one EITHER.
so i guess i need tips too although i'm supposed to be practicing CELIBACY. so i guess i don't. idk lls...confusion.

YoungBlackBeauty said...

Welcome back. I need to jump on the bandwagon and post more too.

desirae! said...


i have absolutely no idea how to ride a dick. i really couldn't even begin to even try to tell you how. so i'm just say good luck on that one!

and i'm so happy about your resolutions and i wish you mountains of good luck!

Anjl Marie said...


Coogie Cruz said...

That was a couragous step to take in going back to therapy. I wish you the best in luck with that. You are strong, always remember that.

Also, good luck with the dick riding. LOL!

Glo said...

Good for you on the therapy babe. I'm very happy for you. I recently JUST got into porn. That shits SO educational. Lina hit the nail on the head with the riding... couldn't have said it better... no really, I couldn't have, she's allllllllll over it.


DiamondsR4eva said...

Just stopping by to say hey -waves- Good luck on the new years resolutions!

Amber-Alert said...

lmao at watchin porn for dick ridin tips...all i can say is practice, practice, practice lol!!!

good luck with everything and as far as snapping at ur mom...u might be frustrated about a few things and taking it out on her (idk why but seems like we always take our frustrations out on those closest to us)...

Lucky said...

Congrats on going to therapy...I'm still trying to build up the courage.

Girl I got drunk last wknd, too, but luckily there was no vomitus involved...

Porn is soo edu-ma-cational, you didn't know? I'm sure your man will be able to help you master the art of riding, LOL

Hard Shell w/ Soft center said...

I know i am REALLY late but I just started to follow your blog. . .Good stuff. :)Anyways. Can't wait to read more posts.