The ex and I have gotten back together.
This is the happiest I've been in a very long time.
I love him so much and while that is a very good feeling, it scares me to death.
Taking a chance and letting it all go.
Gotta jet.
Going to go make love to my man.
Peace and blessings,
Vixen
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Bliss......
posted by (vixenchick) at 4:42 PM 21 holla'd back
Labels: awesomeness, boyfriends, fun stuff, guilty pleasures, love, lovemaking, my baby, THE GOOD, yay
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
Guilty Pleasures, Barack Obama, And A Meltdown Of Epic Proportions
Hey hey hey everybody! Did you miss me? Of course you did! LOL. I missed you guys too! Babies, vixen's exhausted.
I just want to stop and take a moment to tell you guys how happy your comments make me! You have no idea how much I look forward to reading them. I appreciate you guys for coming by my blog, and here's a big ol' HI! to all my new readers...adding you to the blogroll soon. : )
So I know you guys are wondering if I'm eating, and yes, I am. I had to. I was so weak it was to the point where I felt nauseous everytime I bent down to tie my shoes. I'm taking it slow because I know that I can't be cured overnight....this is really hard for me. I've had the urge to throw up everytime I eat but I'm fighting it. I can't let this eating disorder kill me. I went to my eating disorder support group meeting on Thursday night, and Victoria was there. She is the coolest white girl ever! I can tell we're going to be really good friends.
Um...what else? There's not too much going on in the life of vixen. Things with my twin sister are getting a little better. She's trying to do better with the kids, but I'm still doing a majority of the brunt work. Why, you ask? Because I love my neices and my nephew and I want them to have the best. The other night my 5 year old nephew said to me, 'auntie why do you work so much?' and it was then that I realized that I'm doing this for them. I love those kids more than the air I breathe.
Now, on to Mr. Barack Obama!!! I live in Nashville, and he's in town today! They blocked the street where my job is so that he can get to the debate tonight, and I saw him! Yep, you read right! I saw BARACK O-FREAKIN-BAMA!!! He waved at me from his car!!! AAAAAAAAGGGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!! I almost had a freakin heart attack I was so excited that he waved that me! That man is just brilliant, amazing, talented, and beautiful! He's the father I've always wanted. Seeing him made my whole day and it really gave me hope that things are going to change in our country. He's going to be a great president. AAAAAAAAGGGGGGHHHHHHHH I can't believe that brilliant man waved at me!
Anywhos..... I had a meltdown of epic proportions after I left work last night. I was thinking about how much my life has changed since I'm not with him anymore. He was my first boyfriend. Breaking up is so hard to do. It just hit me like a ton of bricks....wow, it's really over. I cried so much last night. I get a pain in my chest everytime I think about him. I miss being his girlfriend so much. *plays 'Can't Let Go' by Mariah Carey*
On to more fun things......
This is a list of songs that I consider to be my gulity pleasure songs. (This is a music blog, after all!)
What are your guilty pleasures? Musically and otherwise? Let me know in the comments!
Peace and Blessings,
vixen
posted by (vixenchick) at 3:33 PM 41 holla'd back
Labels: about me, anorexia, buliemia, exes, family, fun stuff, good music, guilty pleasures, that's just my baby daddy, THE GOOD, things that rock, things that suck
