Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Let's Give 'Em Something To Talk About

***this title has nothing to do with this post! cool points to whoever can tell me what song the title comes from!***

Tag! I'm it!
I've been tagged teamed by Curvy Girl and Songstress! (Hey girls! Love you long time!)

here are the rules:

here goes!

1. I eat 3 to 5 apples a day. I love apples.
2. I'm really horny. (TMI? Oh well! This is my blog, damnnit!)
3. I love this video
4. I love black nail polish even though my ex hates when I wear it.
5. I want to meet Maya Angelou. I love her poetry, and I feel a connection to her because our life stories are so similar.
6. My favorite movie of all time is Purple Rain. Gotta love that Prince! Sexy, sexy.

7. I own over 40 lip glosses.

I'm tagging anyone who wants to do this.

I know I've been gone for a while.....the world of Little Miss Vixen is quite crazy these days. My sister got an apartment! YAY! I'm so proud of her! I'm glad she moved out of my place but I'm missing my nieces and my nephew something fierce. I miss them sleeping in my bed with me. I love those kids so much...it's like I gave birth to them, lol.

Oh damn I almost forgot! I saw my father again the week of my uncles funeral. It was at the party my family had to celebrate my uncles life. Bad experience. He ignored my sister and I the whole time. And this shit right here is the fucking shocker: he has a 7 year old son. He actually takes care of this little boy and is involved in his life. Wow. This was my our first time meeting the little dude, and honestly I could care less about the little boy. The whole time we were at the party our father ignored us. I was trying to be strong for my sister, and it took every ounce of strength in my body for me not to walk up to my father and slap the cowboy shit outta him. I was so hurt....everytime he looked at the little boy, his eyes would just light up with unconditional love for the kid. He never looked at my sister and I like that ever in our lives. I'll be honest...that hurt like hell. Ugh.

The ex and I had a lengthy text discussion on Friday night. Here's how it went down:
ex: I've been doing alot of thinking since the day you broke up with me.
vixen: Thinking about what?
ex: I've been trying to figure out why you ended things.
vixen: Because I felt like you were cheating on me.
ex: I never cheated on you.

*****SWEET DAMN!!! He never cheated. I've been missing his ass something fierce****

Guys, he sounded so sincere when he said it. I want to believe him, but the insecure side of myself tells me that I should'nt. He wants us to get back together. Why is love so confusing? Anywhos, I ended up staying the night with him on Saturday. There was no sex invovled! (Which is why I'm so horny now, lol!) We just talked, spooned, and cuddled. I love that man so much. Love is so complicated!

These are the songs I'm feeling this week:
Energy by Keri Hilson



Is It A Crime (live) by Sade


Till It Happens To (live) by Corinne Bailey Rae

Peace and Blessings,
vixen

47 holla'd back:

Chae NewBreed said...

WOW...CAN'T STAND APPLES. HAVE TO FORCE MYSELF TO EAT THEM LLS.
HOWEVER, I DEF UNDERSTAND UR DILEMMA IN THE WHOLE love situation.
i mean you wanna believe them and i don't think it's an insecurity thing, i believe that its a intuition thing.
U MIGHT BE THINKIN' THAT "HEY, HE DOESN'T HAVE A REASON TO LIE, WE'RE NOT TOGETHER". totally not true. he might be lying. he may not be. i would trust my gut, most times mine is right.
I TALKED TO MY EX AND HE SWORE HE NEVER CHEATED...TIL THIS day...
HOWEVER THE GIRL HE SO CALLED WAS WITH THE 3 WKS WE WEREN'T (broke up) HAS PIX ALL OVER HIS myspace...
fishy...i think so.
so don't listen to me, listen to urself. consider ur women's intuition b/c as cliche as it sounds, IT DOESN'T LIE.
*peace hun*

LEO said...

WOW. MY HEART GOES OUT TO YOU GIRL. BUT UR FATHER WILL PAY FOR HIS. TRUST. ONE DAY HES GOING TO WANT A RELATIONSHIP WITH HIS DAUGHTERS, AND ITS GONNA BE TOO LATE...I DONT HAVE A RELATIONSHIP WITH MY FATHER EITHER BUT IT SEEMS LIKE THE TIME IS COMING WHEN IMA HAVE TO FACE MY ISSUES WITH HIM. I DONT EVEN WANT HIM IN MY LIFE. ILL TAKE HIS MONEY IF HE HAS SOME THO. NOW THAT SHYT, ILL NEVER DENY.

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Jaded said...

Hey Vix-

I was wonderin' when you'd be coming back. Ugh. Sucks to hear how your pops was acting toward you and your twin...all you can do is continue to live tho!

Interested to hear how things play out btw u and ex!

Gorgeous Lynette said...

awwww!!! You read my blog. so I'm going to read yours. I love black nail-polish too. I also had an eating disorder..I'm not sure what you would call it. I ate but not a lot. Buttons is my jam. & I think I'm gonna subscribe.

CurvyGurl said...

Hey mami! It's good to 'see' ya back in blogland. Man, that's some heavy stuff with your father. There so much I could say, but to sum it up I'm praying you'll find the peace you need with that situation. I can only imagine how you feel when you see him.

Hmmm...sounds like some romance part deux in the works with Mr. Ex. Go with your heart and intuition...:-).

Much love, babes! Have a fab holiday!

Da Hunni Toya said...

WOW YOU HAVE TOO MANY LIP GLOSSES LOL DO YOU USE THEM ALL??

& YOUR FATHER- THAT IS SO WRONG FOR HIM TO IGNORE YOU AND YOUR SISTER. I KNOW THAT HAD TO HURT. I PROBALLII WOULD OF FLIPPED AND CRIED

Kandi Black said...

How ya be boo? Sorry for not stopping by here more oftener...i be busier than a swarm of bees working overtime in the honey factory....

dont let ya pops worry u...he'll regret that shady ass shit later and will come back groveling for forgiveness...

and my lil sis be rocking the black polish too...its pretty dope on yall lighter chicks but u aint bout to catch my black ass with no black nail polish!

Tuotierugif >^..^<© said...

Let's Give 'Em Something To Talk About ------- Bonnie Raitt

Beautifully.Conjured.Up said...

I love Gala apples...thos are the best.

Judging by my past weekend, I don't think I will be horny for at least...ummmm...three days :)

OMG, judging by this list, I would say you and I are long lost twins...I love everything on here!!!

Tima And Nasha said...

Vixen we missed you!!! Hope thangs work out with you and ya ex! I'm happy for your sister! And ya dad just pray for him....
Tima

Tee aka The Diva's Thoughts said...

Girl love is really complicated. You are so right!

I am so sorry that your father acted like that.

Soulstress said...

Loved ur list. And yes luv is confusing..hope it works out for the best.

And ur dad...i kno it hurts but he will regret not havin a relationship w/ u & ur sis.


luv luv luuuuuvvvv..keri's song! That was my theme a few months bak lol;)

Teems said...

It hurts just reading that. I can't imagine how you must have felt. But you have to stay strong.

How can you spoon horny? That's dangerous girl. :-P

F.U. said...

First, I'm so happy your sister got her own place! Next, did you say "smack the cowboy shit out of him"? HAHAHAHAHA! I almost wish you would have. Then again, let him continue to miss out on the greatness that is you and your sister. His loss.

And as for you love....just follow your heart.

Thanks for the Thanksgiving luv Vixen! Happy Thanksgiving to you too...there is indeed a lot to be thankful for, huh?

Luh u, bye!

dauche said...

love the blog :) you crack me up. definitely enjoyed this post. lmfao at you being "horny", i haven't seen that on a blog just yet. as far as your father, damn. that's crazy. don't know if you've watched brothers to brutha (i think thats what its called) on bet. well any-who, your situations are someone similar. well enough of me talking. i've joined as a follower & look forward to more blogs... have a great holiday !

~SpiFFSter ~ {SFC} said...

YO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I LOVE YOU VIXEN!
You are like....always the first to comment on my blogs....I have to show you love!!!!!!!!!
LOL!...I love you blog!.... it seems to never be to sad but overflow with all types of emotions from happy to sad to fuck it!
....Keep the good work up homie!

A.M. said...

let's see in order of what I remember.
I don't see why u shouldn't be with him. U broke up because u think he was cheating but u can't really prove it, so that isn't fair and u're in love with him so I say, go for it and get back together. EXCEPT...u can't be with someone u don't trust :?

Yea ya dad is a jerk, don't even know what to say about it. But u shouldn't shun ya brother. U never know, he may want a relationship with u guys and may feel the same way u feel about ur dad shunning u

Hope ur thanksgiving is the best. Eat up gurly :)

Angel said...

Bonnie something sings that song...And smdh @ being horny...we are all human...

SOLOMONSYDELLE said...

first time here. Nice!

Lucky said...

i LOVE your list--I like apples, black nail polish, and lip gloss and I'm horny too! LMAO

I am SO sorry your father is a butt (no offense)...you have tons of people who love you waaaay more...

Now, as for Le Ex, hmm. That's a gag that he didn't actually cheat, so...I dunno...i guess talking is acceptable, just be careful? I suck at relationship advice, don't judge me! *covers face*

MR. CHAP said...

black nail polish is sexy

She Bangz® said...

girl i wish i did eat that many apples a day
for like a week i only ate fruit...&& i felt sooo energized :)

Miss Definitely Maybe said...

am addicted to fruits as well can go through a bag of apples in a couple of days
aah well better apples than chocolates or ice cream.

Trust your instincts about your x boyfriend, our instincts are rarely ever wrong,

As for your father, will not even dignify his ass by leaving a comment about his behaviour.....totally not worth the internet space.

Nicole said...

hey sweetheart, its been a while, and i know....i can bloody talk, anyhoe, im allergic to apple.lol....but there my fav.lol...and PCD r the one, regarding ur pops, argh, thats annoying, but i can never bad mind anothers parentals, i'll leave that to you...but i'll read....=D
and about u and the ex, u know wot, i get u wen u say u love that man....and daym those feelings are hard to ignore, i'll say have fun....be happy, whatever it is u choose to do.
any way my dear.
God bless u
x

pink said...

vixen boo!! i missed you!!! glad you back on the scene babez.

love you!

Dope Fiend said...

uuuuuuuuuuummmmmmmmm yummy apples!
green or red?

my fav are the juicy reds!
Missed yooooooooooooooou!!!!!

im a bit drunk right now...yes i am aware it is four in the afternoon! i think i may have problem?

anyhoooo more importantly, i hate your dad for that...i just hate it when fathers don't act how theyre suposed to. urgh i need to stop b4 i start ranting and raving about padres!

ummmmmm what else...oh yerrrrrrrr you tagged me! i should do that! silly me i 4got!

LOVE the energy video, me and my friend were drooling over her inthe video, she is so HOTTT! and the song is too of course! lol

ok im boringyou now, i'll stop.
blog soon yeah!

xoxo nuff love

Betsey said...

omg,
great post.!
I loveeeee black nail polish as well!
It's a must. =]

Torrance Stephens - All-Mi-T said...

guess u sweet as apple pie madam sade

Desy said...

WOW! the dad situation is super tough. I can't say that I understand, but I do know that the 7yr old is just an innocent bystander... your dad is a dick tho.

i masterbated 4 times yesterday... horniness does not even touch it...lol

i giggled a bit when you said your ex 'sounded so sincere' cause i thought you said it was a text convo *wink*. if you really feel as tho he was being genuine, maybe you can give him another chance... but slowly and with not as much restrictions in the beginning... it might help your feelings about the whole thing

Danielle said...

That's a lot of apples...

"An apple a day keeps the doctor away". Wow, you'll never have to see a doctor for the rest of your life! LOL.

Melody.Darlene said...

girl everyone knows that song! lol and NOW its stuck in my damn head!

DiamondsR4eva said...

Love is confusing...I wish I had an answer or better explanation for u lol

glad to see you're back :-)

YoungBlackBeauty said...

Apples are str8

Im happy for your sister. I know how it feels to have the weight come off your shoulders. Just go visit the kids and you'll be fine.

Your dad makes me sick. I know that must of hurt cuz it hurt me just reading that. I don't understand how men can do that.

Me and my ex are on that tip.

Gia Shakur said...

Don't feel bad my father is an ashole and my stepfather is a fledgling dust head...I think some fathers were meant to be assholes makes the girl stronger

Digital said...

very dope entry, this is my first time visiting but the post was dope sooo looks like i will be back. :-)

FlyyGurl said...

1) Apples make me use the bathroom! (giggle) I couldnt possibly eat that many!
4) I think its fucking tight, but I cat wear it that often. It stains my nails.
5) I wanna meet her too!
7) LUCKY! (napoleon dynamite voice)
me and my dad have an eerily similar situation goin on, though his son is an infant....I wanna shoot that nigga sometimes.
and Im happy for you about your ex,girl. Mine thought cheating should be a regualr part of a relationship...I should shoot that nigga too.

A.M. said...

Im gonna be needing a new post for u. Miss ya in da blog land :/

Brownngirl. said...

Just stopping by to show some love. I like the new layout, and if ever I meet your dad, I'll stomp him for you. Grrrr.

He makes me angry.

Truthful Trish said...

LMAO My ex hates black nail polish too i wonder why they hate it!!?

and wow 40 lip glosses are any of them lip glass from mac?

Jayne Dough said...

hey girl.
gotta luv the blk polish
love sade and corrine to death

Nicole said...

i miss u vix!

dejanae said...

ugh
sorry bout the pops hon
love...
confusing as fuck

Craigjc said...

Love this blog.

Come visit me sometime at

http://popwife.blogspot.com/

Yves said...

Sade is so on point.

Bombchell said...

The energy vid was hot!!

over 40 lipglosses!! omg

Morgo ™ said...

OMG. So I just read all of ur blogs and Im defintiely feelin the vibe. I can relate to alot of the things you wrote on here and probably some things u havent. ANywho, just wanted to show some love. The only reason I choose to comment on this one is cuz u posted it on my BDAY! (dork I know)
Duecez n Smoochez